I'm depressed today. I was depresssed yesterday as well. I thought I was doing better but maybe I wasn't. I don't like this feeling. I don't like it at all. I don't like feeling numb and cold. I don't like feeling lonely but not being able to go do anything. I just want to sleep. Maybe that will make me feel better. But I have class in 45 minutes and I can't do that. I want to go to a friend's house and just cry on their shoulder, but they all are so far away. I talked to a friend last night for an hour and a half and that was cool. and then I talked to someone else for awhile. All my friends live in waverly or waterloo or cedar falls. I don't have any friends here. Not yet. Probably not ever. I don't like the people here. I like my other friends. I like tim and chris and levi and jason and will. I don't have any girl friends do I? I don't. Weird. Oh well. Anyways. My eyes are going blurry because I'm too depressed and tired to see straight. I am not happy. I'm not typing very well either. I'm just not doing that well.