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Sadistic Ex
by Fearless, 20, female

August 22, 2006

Dear Diary,

Kevin's back. I don't know what to do. He wants me back. I feel stupid. I gave up Anthony because my feelings for Kevin were too much. I miss him, but I know unless I stop loving Kevin we can't be together. I can't stop loving Kevin, I keep thinking that deep down he's still a good person. Deep down.....Inside that evil head of his. I wish I knew the answer to what he wants. What he really wants from me...I could save myself from the misery and pain...I've been trying to make the right choices..but I keep wondering if I'm making mistakes along the way. I'm confused and I won't beable to handle being hurt again. I hated him for so long. Now I love him like nothing ever happened...I'm so pathetic...I wish I could just go away and never come back, I going to get hurt..and then my life will be over...Goody.

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I thk guys have a pattern.. and if he hurt u once.. he'll hurt u again.. thts how my ex was.. and I took him back.. take care of ur heart.. the love will fade eventully.. it will trust me.. ur not pathetic ur human.. keep the gud guy

He'll just hurt you again. You know that. Don't give him that chance. You may never get over him, but you WILL get to a pooint in your life that he won't have any control over you anymore. Love sucks... believe me, I understand what you're going through.

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