Kevin's back. I don't know what to do. He wants me back. I feel stupid. I gave up Anthony because my feelings for Kevin were too much. I miss him, but I know unless I stop loving Kevin we can't be together. I can't stop loving Kevin, I keep thinking that deep down he's still a good person. Deep down.....Inside that evil head of his. I wish I knew the answer to what he wants. What he really wants from me...I could save myself from the misery and pain...I've been trying to make the right choices..but I keep wondering if I'm making mistakes along the way. I'm confused and I won't beable to handle being hurt again. I hated him for so long. Now I love him like nothing ever happened...I'm so pathetic...I wish I could just go away and never come back, I going to get hurt..and then my life will be over...Goody.