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by clinicaldepressive, 14, female

December 7, 2002

please don't read this story if you're close to cutting right now...

I wrote this about a week ago in Spanish class....
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Short Story

As I sit and take in the solitude of my room, I let the pain take over and numb my body. All I can feel is the blade on my skin, the blood rising to the surface. I hadn't meant to do it again. I old myself I didn't need to. So much for that. A much as I told myself I wouldn't do it, as much as I tricked myself, I knew I would never stop.
I couldn't even throw away the blade. I wish I could. I'd like to believe each time will be the last but know it won't. It's a never ending cycle. A cycle that couldn't be broken unless I wanted it to. And I didn't. I was addictd to the pain.
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There's my story. it's funny actually. After I wrote that I only kept it for a day. Then I took it home, tore it up and forgot about until now. I thought maybe sharing my story could help me... if not anyone else. I had to dig the pieces out of the trash and tape it back together. It seems like it belongs in here. BTW- I have't cut for over 3 weeks now. I really hope I can keep the last time I did it the last time.


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Good Luck! I hope you can too!
Cheerleader

I have a friend who is doing this to herself. She is depressed and says she hates herself. She often thinks about suicide. Please don't let this happen to yourself.
Jenny

I DONT THINK THAT THIS IS FUNNY BABY GIRL YOU SHOULD SEEK SOME HELP BUT TO THEN HANG IN THERE
Gabrielle BERRE

I guess I don't really see how this could be triggering, but thanks for writing it anyways.
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