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Deeper Meaning of Sex
by Justice, 19, female

December 28, 1999

Dear Diary,
I was 14 when I first had sex, and I call it that because I was raped. I would probably use more vulgar terms , but that's not what this is about. I did, however, make love for the first time when I was 16. This was the first guy to penatrate into more than just my body, he penatrated into my soul. I cried the first time we made love because that this was right, that what we were doing was the right thing at the right time. I told my mom and she was so understanding. I asked her how she could tell me such understanding words when her faith and her religion tells her to otherwise condem my behavior. She told me that she had no right to judge my actions, that if I was going to do something she wanted to make sure I was really ready and that I was always safe. I have been. I say no to sex because of those words. I know that sex is not something that time can tell. I don't have sex because of the pressure, I've learned to say no and back it up everytime. But only becuase my mom opened up herself to me and let me know the real deal, let me know the deeper meaning of sex!

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Beginning of this diary is exciting. I want you to write more. It sounded boring after half of this diary. Change the subject when you change the tone of story.

I wish more parents were like your mom. Instead of telling you to not have sex (which would make her life the easiest), she instead talked to you, and let you know that she trusted your judgement, and

Thanks for posting that! I'm sorry to hear that you were raped, I hope that you can continue to heal and recover from it. I'm glad that you found a guy who respected and loved you! Your mom so

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