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Lolcano
by Reko, 19, male

April 17, 2010

Dear Diaryproject

I feel torn, my mind is scrambled. Its like getting swamped in the surf, that water is so powerful you cant fight it you just have to wait until you can come up for air. Im all alone in the dark and Im trying to reach out but I cant. This is maybe the worst Ive ever felt...apart from the time I got my heart broken and didnt eat or sleep for a week. That sucked a little bit more I think. Well at least I had something I could put it on...im confused now. I keep trying to keep my chin up but Im just getting a run of bad cards here...Im not sure about luck, but it seems Im getting the worst of it. Nothing is going right for me...well thats a lie everything is fine with my daughter, but everything else sucks. Work, relationships, emotions....I feel like a completely different person than I used to be. Like everything I was has been sucked out and Im just a hollow shell here just to support the people that need me for various functions that I perform.

Zomfg thats emo. Lol.

I still love you though....just not as much.

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Reko

Hang in there! Everyghing is gonna be fine.
Doinpark

That must really rile them up. Domesticity is their forte. Few can ##### with that.
black rabbit

I just like to argue about trivial things like the best brand of laundry powder and should we be buying it at all if its so easy to make?
Reko

My argument is usually an eloquent way of saying "I love the positive vibes, but fornication and drugs and cursing and sleeping in on Sundays are a part of my personality and I have faith that Jesus understands"
black rabbit

thanks br...im out now. Nice, i do have heated debates with mormon missionaries
Reko

If you've had any experience with any emotion, if you've simply lived longer than a day, then you would know that everything ends, passes, and changes. Squeeze whatever is left of your heart and make red wine.
black rabbit

and hand them to people on the street that seem worthy of reading them. If you used to be cool and all you have now is a hollow shell, bide your time until you get cool again by working that hollow shell until hollow shells become the latest trend.
black rabbit

My prescription: drink out of champagne glasses as often as possible, wear a robe as often as possible, watch reruns of old sitcoms, ask people if they need help with anything, have debates with Mormon missionaries, practice porn acting, write an exaggerated play about how pathetic you are, write letters and proverbs
black rabbit

Night is always darkest right before the dawn. Just stick it out a while longer. I promise things with get better.
April

smoke a joint. Thats what I always do when life is being a bastard... well even when life is good I still smoke.
laugh

thats pretty good advice there bro....changing ur style? good to see some of the oldies still lurking here
Reko

Sometimes, when I'm feeling down in the dumps, I watch documentaries about Africa...something about flies on a starving Nigerian babies face just makes my problems seem...not so big.
Bad Adviceman

Expectations are a btch, son. Can't let the greener grass get you down.
freak

that sucks man. I miss your writing if u get the time tell me about it.
Reko

Nothing is going right for me either. I thought it was. But I was way wrong.
Balthazar's Blue


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