Abusive?
by
MakeMeABird, 20, female
April 14, 2010
Dear Diary,We have been dating for almost 3 months and the entire time I have been walking on eggshells. Well, that is a lie. It started out good. We had a lot of fun, good conversations and great sex. Then like 3 weeks into it he started calling and texting about every 15 minutes. He would get mad if I didn’t have my phone with me, or if I didn’t reply to him. If I told him that I didn’t want sex he would call me a #####, but then turn around with a, “I love you, baby. I won’t make you do anything you don’t want to do.” However, that didn’t last very long. I can remember one night I told him no and he held me down and told me, “too bad.” The last two weeks I’ve only been seeing him when I am with my sister because I know that I can’t have sex in front of her and that he is nicer to me in front of her; sometimes. Well, I just found out that he cheated on me three days ago with his ex. The only reason was because I wasn’t giving him sex. So, I broke up with him, but then he started crying telling me, “I can’t live without you. You are the best thing to ever happen to me. I would rather kill myself than live without you.” So, I told him I would get back with him if he changed things. He said he would, so I got back with him. As soon as I said yes, he said, “Let’s have a quickie,” and he threw me down on the bed and tried to take my pants off. I scratched his face because it was the only thing I could do. He grabbed my wrists and yanked me off of the bed, called me a #####, and told me to leave. Then, like always, he called and he was so sorry and he didn’t want to lose me. Now I’m sitting here typing this staring at my phone as his name pops up for the 10th time today.
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you deserve better. i dont know you but i know you deserve better. he needs to grow up and you dont need to deal with that.. if things are this way now, you dont want to wait around and let them get worse.
melissa
Do NOT go back with him. He is very abusive and sounds like he wanted to rape you. Dont do it, listen to yourself. If your body doesnt feel safe around him and you only feel comfortable whenever some else is around dump him..
shameelah
tell him u dont want to and the only way u will be able to be with him is that if u texted or hang out with family
Chelsea
Don't go back with him. mark my words, if you go with him this time, you will next time...and the next...and the next. and no matter what he says, it's not going to end.
With love, KIM
...if you didn't want to have sex with him and he made you, you were raped. If he really loved you he would listen to what you want and wouldn't keep you under constant servalence. You need to get away. Please, it's the healthiest thing you can do
April
its always the douche bags that get the hot women :(
laugh
...you will look back on this in the future and be so pround that you were strong enough to f.uck him off. good luck to you and stay strong!
Adriana
sounds exactly like my ex, he use to put a pillow over my face so i couldnt scream. there is nothing you can gain from a relationship like this, don't be fooled by his manipulation. tell your friends tell your family because you will need support to make sure he NEVER comes back. believe in yourself and keep a strong head.
Adriana
you need to leave him. abusers don't change and it will just get worse. get out while you can and maybe you should call the police for what he did to you.
Jen
I think you really need to get away from this guy. I know you don't want to hurt hi feelings but this is a really abusive relationship!!! If he really is sorry than he would NEVER of been so mean to you!
Layla
dont talk to him. phone the police, he raped you. dont stay with a guy who cheated. tell ur sister about what he is doing because abuse is wrong. please for me, dont ever go back to him because i know a girl who was murdered because of a seemingly harmless "abussive boyfriend"
amelia
I know you might be tempted to give him the benefit of the doubt but I urge you NOT to. You have the right to be with someone who loves and respects you. For the moment though, you need to take care of your safety and sanity. This relationship is definitely abusive. Please have the courage to be good to yourself. Good luck!
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