Dear Diary, I should hate him. I should hate him with every single part of me. but i dont.. I fell for him too easily did things i never should have given into so easily and he broke my heart. and i only hate me. i knew better. i knew that i shouldnt trust him yet. but i did.During the day i am fine. i smile. i laugh. i am happy. but at night lonliness sets in and i miss him i miss his smile, his touch, his kiss. and i wish that i was good enough for him but i'm not. I want to be over him and i cant and it only makes me hate myself more. I want to be happy without him, i want to be able to stop wishing he was mine and get on with my life. he obviously does not deserve me.
I want to remember what it feels like to be me again. me without him. I want to forget him.
